Thirst.
I began thinking about that word in the context of being dehydrated, which I was after 3 coffees, and being the need for something so bad that you know once you get that thing, it will immediately satisfy you. Like when you crave french fries or pizza late on a Friday or Saturday night, (even though you know you probably shouldn't eat it after 6pm) you find your way to that food item and quench your craving. It's an instant gratification that will IMMEDIATELY leave you fulfilled and satisfied.
I listen to my friends talk about not being sure of what they want in life, even after 2, 4 or even 8 years of school. Some who are fully immersed and succeeding in their career and some are so unhappy with where they are doing. I think, why do something you don't like everyday for the rest of your life? Who knows how many days are left for you to live, why spend them unhappy?
What is my thirst? I'm still trying to figure that out. When am I going to quench it? I'm not sure, but the journey to figuring out exactly what I need to find that gratification, is a journey I am enjoying and one worth taking. There is no reason to stress or to get upset about the speed of getting to that answer. Time will tell and until then I will stay thirsty.
I don't always drink 3 cups of coffee a day but when I do, I become philosophical.
Jazz